things my 30 something self would like to say to my 20 something self.

• the hot guy you are lusting after is wayyyy more screwed up than you think (you are). 
• family is so everything. 
• the world really won't end if you publicly fall and ruin everything you are wearing. 
• tell your friend she may have something revolutionary, a gluten allergy. 
• purchase snow removal equipment and a small to medium sized empty property. 
• don't take on others' crap. but do learn more about yours. 
• it gets better. 
• others won't make you happy. you make you happy. 
• fung wah? are you kidding???
• oprah doesn't rule the world, starbucks does. 
• moisturize. everywhere. 

self study

instinctively, i've always used humor as a defense mechanism.

take the other day. i completely ate the sidewalk in front of all the 9am commuters in boston's financial district and before anyone could even ask if i was alright, i got up, and screamed "SAFE!"

things like that.

as of late, i have really paid attention to the "man, i wish i had done that differently." one of the many things that i appreciate about new year's with my friends is that we all say what we'd like to work towards in the upcoming year. mine for 2015 was not to immediately grab on to the self-deprecation, in order to make others feel less awkward. i may not be a bodybuilder, but i am a really strong person. emotionally.

the next time i ass plant, i am gonna enjoy it goddamit.